I know I'm not ridiculously obese but at 4 stone heavier than what I was a couple of years ago I feel disgusting, can't fit into anything and generally feel sh*t! Why am I sharing this ? Because I'm showing that don't believe what you see on social media, I've been one to spend hours myself looking through insa at everyone's "perfect" photos, perfect figures, perfect faces and I'll be the first to admit it makes me feel crap, I'll feel jealous of how perfectly beautiful and slim they are. I look in the mirror and hate myself, I rarely meet with friends now as too embarrassed how I look. I've had comments that I'm stuck up, love myself etc when the truth is I suffer with extreme self esteem issues and have no self confidence at all – aside from when I have a face of makeup and a filter making me look totally not me! I've struggled for pretty much my whole life with eating issues- constant yoyo dieting, fast weightloss just to gain in all back and more! I was quite trim after having the twins and was in ok shape right after I had them but have gained 2 stone since?I am a total emotional eater, I am addicted to food and have a real problem.
I only ever post filtered photos, photos taken in good angles as to not show how much weight I've gained. I get a lot of messages on here saying how do you look so amazing for 7 kids etc your so slim etc- I always reply oh good filter, good angle etc. Time for a real post! This is probably the most embarrassing, hardest post for me to share but I'm going to do it anyway.
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